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The Day Before the Holiday
Tomorrow is the 4th of July and as a child, it would mean good times. My multigenerational family would gather together to celebrate and I would play with my cousins and friends until everyone went home. I can still remember the smell of the barbecue grill my Aunt Maggie would set up at 6am. I…
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The Promise
As previously mentioned, I had an epiphany that I would be 55 years old next year, and just a few minutes ago, I had another one. Neither one of my brothers made it to old age. They were ages 34 and 63 years old when they died, and that’s so sad. If I was to…
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The Big 55
Earlier this morning, I was in the bathroom doing what humans do, and it occurred to me that I will be 55 years old next year. When I say it felt like I was slapped in the face with a sock full of bricks with that knowledge, it surely did. 55 years on this planet…
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Fighting for My Life
The first three months of 2024 have been interesting to say the least. I resigned from a government position back in November due to not being able to fulfill the requirements of the job because I have permanent short term memory loss due to the medication I take for epilepsy. But I found another job…
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Finding Joy
There are many unhappy people in this country which is ironic considering that the pursuit of happiness is written in the Constitution. They are unhappy with their economic status, their relationship status. Just mad at everything and everyone and although I understand because at times, I’m mad as hell too but it’s not healthy to…
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Sick and Tired
One of the worst things about epilepsy is that people think that you are exaggerating about the side effects of the anti seizure medication that you take to keep from having seizures. To live a semi normal life because the life you previously had will never be the same again. I’ve left two really good…
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The Art of Hushing
In 2024, let’s put an end to offering unsolicited advice to those who didn’t ask you shit and learning the art of shutting the fuck up. For some reason, there are people in the world who really believe that they have been anointed by a higher power and think they have the right to tell…
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My Own Existential Crisis
I recently figured out that I’ve been having an existential crisis since 2018 when my cousin died and since she passed away, I’ve lost several more family members and friends. It’s like death has been holding me in a tight clutch. To the point where I think about death entirely too much. Things that I…
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The Change of Life or Menopause
I’m 52 years old and I’m currently going through that dreaded period in a woman’s life: menopause and it’s a motherfucker. It’s filled with a roller coaster of emotions, trials, and challenges. First, let’s talk about these stanking ass hot flashes. Hot flashes can be defined as periods in which your body feels like it’s…